Getting rid of the stress.

The past few days have been incredibly rough for me.  I've been trying to deal with so many things and adding to my already stressed life.  I don't like holding things against people, or being upset with people I'm close to and I have been both of those and more towards my sister the past few days. Last night I got violently ill, and couldn't stop throwing up I was so stressed.  I've not been handeling the news that my 18 year old sister, and her boyfriend of 7/8 months are pregnant.

I ALWAYS dreamed of being the first sibling in my family to have a baby, and bring the first grandchild into our family.  I've honestly been thinking about it and how exciting it was going to be in the next few (meaning 3-4) years to bring home the first grandchild.  This may sound childish silly but I can't think of any reason why I shouldn't be upset. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and excited for my sister, I know she is going to be a great mother.  I'll be there for everything, and I dare someone to tell me otherwise.  I just can't deal with the drama.

So as of tomorrow, 1/31/13, I am deleting my facebook.  That's where 90% of the drama is coming from and I, for obvious reasons, can't handle it.  I'm going to keep up with my blog and post daily/weekly.  I'm not sure if I'm going to permentaly delete it from my life, but I'm excited to start Feburary clean; no drama. 

I can't continue to be so stressed about everything.  It's making me sick, and not wanting to eat.  What ever happens, I know GOD is in control and I have to continue to believe that it's all going to work. 

I appreciate as many prayers as I can get.

Until next time...

Kay