Monday, February 18, 2013

Life Inspiration Comes In Funny Forms.

Have you ever read a book, that touched your heart and just made you rethink life?  I just finished reading The Boots My Mother Gave Me and I must say, it was an amazing book.  It touched home, on some things, and made me think about everything.
Within each of us, there lies the innate ability to survive, triumph, and overcome, rewriting the scripts of our own lives, having some power over our fate and the fate of generations to come. Nothing have to be just because that's the way it's always been.
 
 Who hasn't been told "that's the way it's always been" growing up?  I know my mother told me all the time. 

Who says we have to do things the way our parents did? What in the universe says we HAVE to do things a certain way? Why is it so frowned upon to do your own thing and to be unique? Why is it that most peoples futures are written out for them by the time they graduate high school?

As someone who has struggled the past few years in college, and in life, trying to figure out what it is I want to do and who I want to be I feel frowned upon by many people, but those people "don't matter".  They're not the people I seek acceptance from and I'm lucky to know that no matter what there are people that accept me for who I am.
To make an excuse sidesteps responsibility.  But to make a choice automatically assumes responsibility.


Many people thought because Patrick and I moved in together while we were so young, we were being irresponsible, but if anything it made us responsible.   Many people doubted if we would make it to where we are today, but we did.  We both work as much as possible, and he is finishing up his last semester of college.  We struggle, but who doesn't.
If you smile and laugh, people think you're happy.  If you act calm and collected, people think you have it together.
 
 For many people in life their image is the most important thing to them.  You don't need a fancy degree, a six figure salary, a big house, and a brand new car to be happy.  Those things would be nice, but not everyone needs those things. 

This book made me realize that sometimes it's as equally hard to walk in someone else's shoes as it is to create your own foot prints.  Life is a funny thing, and you only get one chance at it.  Don't do things that you will regret looking back, do things that you can talk and laugh about with your family and your grad kids when you're old and grey.  Do things that make yourself proud.  It's easy to try and please someone else, but what about you?  Pleasing yourself is the hard part.

People can not make you take their character as your own.


I'm so very happy that I read this book, and I highly reccommend it to anyone who is looking for a good read.  It will make you laugh, cry and sucks you in 'till the very end.

Until next time...

Kay


 The parts of this blog in the baby blue color and direct quotes from the book.

 

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Throwing some punches.

I decided to reactivate my facebook account, and I'm nervous about it.  Facebook is so easy to get addicted to and I don't want that to happen again.  I am not going to have facebook on my phone, and I'm only going to log in maybe once a day.  I want to be able to keep up with my family and friends that I don't keep up with on an everyday occurance.  I may even delete more friends off of my page, who knows. 

On the flip side:

I'm excited for my valentines date with my bff! Jammies, food, and Vampire Diaries sounds like a winner to me! :)

Until next time,

Kay



Thursday, February 7, 2013

Starting to See the Sunshine

First of all, I'm SUPER excited that my blog has reached almost 1000 views! WOOT! That may be a minuscule amount compared to other blogs, but I'm so excited that people are still reading my blog since I deleted facebook.  Thank you to the consistant followers!

Speaking of facebook, it's been an enitire week since I've deleted it. I've cheated probably 3 or 4 times by logging into Patrick's facebook, but each time remindes me of why I got rid of it.  I've found time to clean my house, cook meals, do (some) laundry and go for walks every afternoon.  I've been reading a book a day (crazy I know) and spending quality time with myself.  Holy crap, what was I thinking wasting SO much time on facebook?  The grey and black clouds that has followed me for the past week or so are FINALLY starting to fade.  Thank God! I don't think I could have handled much more.

I broke down on Tuesday, I think it was, and said things I shouldn't have said to my sister.  I cried on the phone with her, I cried when I got home, I cried in the shower that night.   I think I needed to cry.  Life is starting to look up.  I'm working a bunch, trying to get ahead and prepare for what is to come.

I'm turining in my laptop and books back to the school next week.  I'm offically starting the year of finding myself, figuring out what it is I want in life, and being young.  As long as I can remember I've always wanted to be grown, graduate college, start a career and now that I'm there I have NO idea what I want to do. 

I'm going to take it day by day. I am going to be spontanious: I'm going to cook crazy meals, I'm going to not sweat the small things, I am going to have fun!  I'm going to spend more time with my family and friends, my cousins live 10 minutes away and I can't tell you the last time I saw them.  Life is getting away from me, and I NEED to be 20!

I want to get in to photography.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE nature and I want to take pictures.  I want to be passionate about something and LOVE doing it. 

I hope to look back on the next year and be proud of the decisions I've made.

Until next time! :)

Kay

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Old habits die hard

It's been five days since I deleted my facebook.  It's been an easy(ish) transition.  I've not missed it at all, it's just trying to find something to do to fill the mindless spots where I used to just scroll through facebook.

I've NOT missed the drama.  I've NOT missed seeing what people post. 

I have cheated a few times and logged into Patrick's facebook. :( But old habits die hard.

Last night Patrick and I were able to go through an entire dinner with out me looking at my phone.  That (honestly) hasn't happened in about a year.  Sad I know, but facebook consumed soo much of my life.

I think I'm going to make this a permanent thing.  I don't want to, or have the desire to, be on facebook any more.  Is SO invigorating.

The stress of life is still there, but that's being an adult.  You've got to learn how to roll with the punches as life throws them out.

Until next time...

Kay