Starting to See the Sunshine

First of all, I'm SUPER excited that my blog has reached almost 1000 views! WOOT! That may be a minuscule amount compared to other blogs, but I'm so excited that people are still reading my blog since I deleted facebook.  Thank you to the consistant followers!

Speaking of facebook, it's been an enitire week since I've deleted it. I've cheated probably 3 or 4 times by logging into Patrick's facebook, but each time remindes me of why I got rid of it.  I've found time to clean my house, cook meals, do (some) laundry and go for walks every afternoon.  I've been reading a book a day (crazy I know) and spending quality time with myself.  Holy crap, what was I thinking wasting SO much time on facebook?  The grey and black clouds that has followed me for the past week or so are FINALLY starting to fade.  Thank God! I don't think I could have handled much more.

I broke down on Tuesday, I think it was, and said things I shouldn't have said to my sister.  I cried on the phone with her, I cried when I got home, I cried in the shower that night.   I think I needed to cry.  Life is starting to look up.  I'm working a bunch, trying to get ahead and prepare for what is to come.

I'm turining in my laptop and books back to the school next week.  I'm offically starting the year of finding myself, figuring out what it is I want in life, and being young.  As long as I can remember I've always wanted to be grown, graduate college, start a career and now that I'm there I have NO idea what I want to do. 

I'm going to take it day by day. I am going to be spontanious: I'm going to cook crazy meals, I'm going to not sweat the small things, I am going to have fun!  I'm going to spend more time with my family and friends, my cousins live 10 minutes away and I can't tell you the last time I saw them.  Life is getting away from me, and I NEED to be 20!

I want to get in to photography.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE nature and I want to take pictures.  I want to be passionate about something and LOVE doing it. 

I hope to look back on the next year and be proud of the decisions I've made.

Until next time! :)

Kay