It's been a while ole' friend.

It's been a while since my last blog, and I hope that it finds everyone happy, safe and healthy.  The last time I blogged was in May, and Patrick was fixing to graduate from Clemson so let me catch you up on what has been going on the past few months.

Patrick graduated in May, and on June 1st he FINALLY proposed! YAY! (It only took him six years) We've set a date, September 27, 2014 and it is approaching fast, and I mean FAST! It seems like it was yesterday that he proposed. We've got our wedding party picked out, our wedding venue picked out, and nearly everything in between. I bought my dress in July, I know it was super early but I loved it and couldn't imagine wearing any other.

My sister had Ms. Sophia Juliana Lopez on September 13, 2013.  She is a sassy, happy and super cute almost three month old and I wouldn't trade her for the world. My youngest God son just turned one, how crazy is that and he is going to be a big brother soon! I can't wait to meet the newest baby Polston.

Patrick and I are currently living in Georgetown with his parents.  They have been so helpful and understanding throughout the almost six months we've been living there. We're currently both looking for jobs and trying to eventually get out on our own, we do have a wedding to pay for! :)

My bff Emma and her fiance (patricks bff) are graduating in just a few days so we're excited to be going back to Clemson for a visit and to watch them graduate.  I'm SO excited and SOO proud of her! She is such a kick ass girl and an awesome friend.  She is going to turn the marketing world of Greenville upside down! :)

I hope each and everyone of you have a very merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I hope to begin blogging constantly again very soon.

Until next time,

Kay

Springing into action!

What a beautiful day it is today!  The birds are singing, the crickets are chirping, the squirrels are playing, and the sun is shining! O' how I LOVE Spring!

Today marks 22 days until my 6 year anniversary with Patrick.  I honestly never thought we would make it this far! I am so excited for our future.

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults.
You don't look for answers. You don't look for mistakes.
Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults and
you overlook excuses. The measure of love is when you
love without measure. There are rare chances that you'll
meet the person you love and who loves you in return.
So once you have it, don't let it go. The chance may never
come your way again.

Today marks day 2 of strict diet and exercise.  I am excited to start this journey, and I plan on keeping a weekly journal of how much weight I've lost. I hope I can stick to what I've started.  I want to be the size I was in high school by this time next year, with hard work and determination, I KNOW I can achieve my goal!

Hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful spring day!

Until next time,

Kay

Empty

I haven't blogged in a while...

So much has been happening that I want to blog about, I just can't find the time to sit down and blog about it, and/or people wouldn't appreciate it if I blogged about it.

We're going home this weekend, and we're going to be crazy busy like usual.
I can't wait to see my twin and see my sister and her boys! :)

Yesterday I had an awesome shopping trip with my bff.  It was definitely needed and enjoyed.

I finally sent out a box to my cousin in Cuba (Clemson Gear!)

That's about it...  Can't wait to see everyone this weekend.

Until next time...

Kay

Have some couth!

The one thing that annoys me more than anything on this planet is to hear something happened in my family via FACEBOOK! It's just rude and I'm sick of people posting things on facebook before they tell their families.  You're pregnant, great, tell your family before you post it for everyone to see.  You're engaged, lucky you! Don't post that shit all over facebook before your family knows. 

To me, it makes you feel worthless to that person, like it doesn't matter if you know before the other 500 people that they met once knows. 

People today don't know the value of family: you fight, disagree, get annoyed and maybe even resent people in your family.  That doesn't mean that they don't care, want you around, and need to hear from you.  You don't have to talk to that person every day, or even once a week, but take the time to call and check on your loved ones before it's too late. 

“I can be hurt, she said, only by people I respect.”
-Mary Balogh

Take the time to tell your loved ones that you love them, regardless of the things that have happened in the past.  Start each day with a clean slate.  You're only promised today, tomorrow can come and go before your eyes.


Until next time...

Kay

Lookin' back.

When I started this blog, my goal was to make changes in my life that will help me in the long run.  I wanted to start by changing some of my bad habits that I have like biting my nails, and being a couch potato. So far, the nail biting has come to a screeching halt.  I cut my nails once every two weeks, and I keep them painted and groomed through out the week.  The only thing I'm having trouble with is the fact that they're peeling.  Weird I know but I don't know how to make it stop.  Any suggestions are greatly appreciated.

I've slowly quit with being a couch potato.  I go walking each afternoon and spend time outdoors and stay busy when I'm at home.  Other than that, I don't really exercises or diet, which is sad.  I want to have a healthy diet and I want to excercise, break a sweat kind of exercise, for at least an hour each day.  I just have no motivation. 

I have become obsessed with wanting my hair to grow quickly.  I know that there isn't an exact way to make my hair just magically grow, I just miss my long hair.

Life has been a crazy mess with little time to do anything other than work.  Patrick and I hardly see each other other than late evenings.  We're both ready for life to slow down so we can have some R&R.

Life is fixing to get even more crazy with spring break coming up, our anniversary right after that, and then Patrick's graduation.  Maybe we should take a vacation once it's all said and done.

Until next time...

Kay

Life Inspiration Comes In Funny Forms.

Have you ever read a book, that touched your heart and just made you rethink life?  I just finished reading The Boots My Mother Gave Me and I must say, it was an amazing book.  It touched home, on some things, and made me think about everything.

Within each of us, there lies the innate ability to survive, triumph, and overcome, rewriting the scripts of our own lives, having some power over our fate and the fate of generations to come. Nothing have to be just because that's the way it's always been.

 

 Who hasn't been told "that's the way it's always been" growing up?  I know my mother told me all the time. 

Who says we have to do things the way our parents did? What in the universe says we HAVE to do things a certain way? Why is it so frowned upon to do your own thing and to be unique? Why is it that most peoples futures are written out for them by the time they graduate high school?

As someone who has struggled the past few years in college, and in life, trying to figure out what it is I want to do and who I want to be I feel frowned upon by many people, but those people "don't matter".  They're not the people I seek acceptance from and I'm lucky to know that no matter what there are people that accept me for who I am.

To make an excuse sidesteps responsibility.  But to make a choice automatically assumes responsibility.

Many people thought because Patrick and I moved in together while we were so young, we were being irresponsible, but if anything it made us responsible.   Many people doubted if we would make it to where we are today, but we did.  We both work as much as possible, and he is finishing up his last semester of college.  We struggle, but who doesn't.

If you smile and laugh, people think you're happy.  If you act calm and collected, people think you have it together.
 

 For many people in life their image is the most important thing to them.  You don't need a fancy degree, a six figure salary, a big house, and a brand new car to be happy.  Those things would be nice, but not everyone needs those things. 

This book made me realize that sometimes it's as equally hard to walk in someone else's shoes as it is to create your own foot prints.  Life is a funny thing, and you only get one chance at it.  Don't do things that you will regret looking back, do things that you can talk and laugh about with your family and your grad kids when you're old and grey.  Do things that make yourself proud.  It's easy to try and please someone else, but what about you?  Pleasing yourself is the hard part.

People can not make you take their character as your own.

I'm so very happy that I read this book, and I highly reccommend it to anyone who is looking for a good read.  It will make you laugh, cry and sucks you in 'till the very end.

Until next time...

Kay

 The parts of this blog in the baby blue color and direct quotes from the book.

 

Throwing some punches.

I decided to reactivate my facebook account, and I'm nervous about it.  Facebook is so easy to get addicted to and I don't want that to happen again.  I am not going to have facebook on my phone, and I'm only going to log in maybe once a day.  I want to be able to keep up with my family and friends that I don't keep up with on an everyday occurance.  I may even delete more friends off of my page, who knows. 

On the flip side:

I'm excited for my valentines date with my bff! Jammies, food, and Vampire Diaries sounds like a winner to me! :)

Until next time,

Kay

Starting to See the Sunshine

First of all, I'm SUPER excited that my blog has reached almost 1000 views! WOOT! That may be a minuscule amount compared to other blogs, but I'm so excited that people are still reading my blog since I deleted facebook.  Thank you to the consistant followers!

Speaking of facebook, it's been an enitire week since I've deleted it. I've cheated probably 3 or 4 times by logging into Patrick's facebook, but each time remindes me of why I got rid of it.  I've found time to clean my house, cook meals, do (some) laundry and go for walks every afternoon.  I've been reading a book a day (crazy I know) and spending quality time with myself.  Holy crap, what was I thinking wasting SO much time on facebook?  The grey and black clouds that has followed me for the past week or so are FINALLY starting to fade.  Thank God! I don't think I could have handled much more.

I broke down on Tuesday, I think it was, and said things I shouldn't have said to my sister.  I cried on the phone with her, I cried when I got home, I cried in the shower that night.   I think I needed to cry.  Life is starting to look up.  I'm working a bunch, trying to get ahead and prepare for what is to come.

I'm turining in my laptop and books back to the school next week.  I'm offically starting the year of finding myself, figuring out what it is I want in life, and being young.  As long as I can remember I've always wanted to be grown, graduate college, start a career and now that I'm there I have NO idea what I want to do. 

I'm going to take it day by day. I am going to be spontanious: I'm going to cook crazy meals, I'm going to not sweat the small things, I am going to have fun!  I'm going to spend more time with my family and friends, my cousins live 10 minutes away and I can't tell you the last time I saw them.  Life is getting away from me, and I NEED to be 20!

I want to get in to photography.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE nature and I want to take pictures.  I want to be passionate about something and LOVE doing it. 

I hope to look back on the next year and be proud of the decisions I've made.

Until next time! :)

Kay

Old habits die hard

It's been five days since I deleted my facebook.  It's been an easy(ish) transition.  I've not missed it at all, it's just trying to find something to do to fill the mindless spots where I used to just scroll through facebook.

I've NOT missed the drama.  I've NOT missed seeing what people post. 

I have cheated a few times and logged into Patrick's facebook. :( But old habits die hard.

Last night Patrick and I were able to go through an entire dinner with out me looking at my phone.  That (honestly) hasn't happened in about a year.  Sad I know, but facebook consumed soo much of my life.

I think I'm going to make this a permanent thing.  I don't want to, or have the desire to, be on facebook any more.  Is SO invigorating.

The stress of life is still there, but that's being an adult.  You've got to learn how to roll with the punches as life throws them out.

Until next time...

Kay

Starting New

“Time is free, but it’s priceless.  You can’t own it, but you can use it.  You can’t keep it, but you can spend it.  Once you’ve lost it you can never get it back."

I'm SO incredibly excited about this blog post.  Flipping over a new leaf with minimal social media.  February is going to be a new clean start and I can't wait.  So here it goes I'm super excited about it!

I no longer have an active Facebook account.  This may only last a few days or it may last forever, I'm not sure.  I spend so much time on Facebook that I'm going to be shocked at how much time I have on my hands now. 

I feel so good about this, and I feel like I'm on the way to a healthier lifestyle: no stress, no social media, spending time with loved ones and having quiet time to myself. 

I hope this finds everyone happy and healthy.

Until next time.

Kay

Getting rid of the stress.

The past few days have been incredibly rough for me.  I've been trying to deal with so many things and adding to my already stressed life.  I don't like holding things against people, or being upset with people I'm close to and I have been both of those and more towards my sister the past few days. Last night I got violently ill, and couldn't stop throwing up I was so stressed.  I've not been handeling the news that my 18 year old sister, and her boyfriend of 7/8 months are pregnant.

I ALWAYS dreamed of being the first sibling in my family to have a baby, and bring the first grandchild into our family.  I've honestly been thinking about it and how exciting it was going to be in the next few (meaning 3-4) years to bring home the first grandchild.  This may sound childish silly but I can't think of any reason why I shouldn't be upset. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and excited for my sister, I know she is going to be a great mother.  I'll be there for everything, and I dare someone to tell me otherwise.  I just can't deal with the drama.

So as of tomorrow, 1/31/13, I am deleting my facebook.  That's where 90% of the drama is coming from and I, for obvious reasons, can't handle it.  I'm going to keep up with my blog and post daily/weekly.  I'm not sure if I'm going to permentaly delete it from my life, but I'm excited to start Feburary clean; no drama. 

I can't continue to be so stressed about everything.  It's making me sick, and not wanting to eat.  What ever happens, I know GOD is in control and I have to continue to believe that it's all going to work. 

I appreciate as many prayers as I can get.

Until next time...

Kay

The black cloud

I'm frustrated.

I'm hurt.

I'm depressed.

I need to let off steam and clear some things off of my already over flowing plate.

I need something good to happen asap and in order to do so, I really am going to have to make some changes and fast. 

I need to cry.

I'm trying to see the good in life right now, but it's over powered by the bad.

I feel like I'm getting sick, and my wisdom teeth are killing me.

I'm sorry this is such a crazy post.

I hope to my next post is going to be much happier, and more like myself.

Until next time....

Kay

Hitting a Wall

Since turning twenty nearly four months ago, I feel like I've reconsidered every aspect of my life.  Turning twenty really made me rethink things, and made me realize that life is short.  I've got to do what I want to do, not what others want me to do. 

I'm literally sitting in my living room fighting with myself to not write this blog, I have homework that needs to be done: I honestly just don't care if it gets done or not.  School is not my #1 priority, and it should be.  I've been miserable since I started college my freshman year, not really caring if I passed or not, just doing enough to skate by. That is sad... I pay for my college education, not my mom and dad, me. 

I'm not sure why I can't motivate myself to do better and want to strive to make good grades.  Don't get me wrong, my grades are not horrible, but they're not where they should be.

 I feel rushed to make a decision on what I want to do, because everyone around me is engaged, getting married, graduating college and being successful: here I am pouring my heart out to a computer screen. (sigh)

My grandmother used to say, "don't worry It'll all come out in the wash".  I now find myself wondering if she had any magic detergent because I feel like I've waited for it to come out in the wash more than once. 

I want to do something that I love, I want to go to work every day and enjoy myself, or even stay at home and raise my kids.  I know that God has a plan for me, and I'm just not being patient enough to see what he is trying to show me.  All I know is that I'm miserable in school, I really resent myself for a lot of things and I feel like I need to have everything figured out right now.

2013 is going to be a year of change and I'm so thankful that no matter how many times I fall on my face I know I have family, friends, and the most wonderful boyfriend in the world that will help me pick up the pieces and start again.  Life is like learning to ride a bike: I think I'm finally ready to take off my training wheels.